A week before My Birthday.

Last Sunday I found my old journal. The one that I planned to jot down every single momentos, life plan and lesson learned from various experience gained previously.

Sadly, the book was not being properly used. There were only few pages written with some long sappy and regrettable post. Oh-uh.

Perhaps I haven't reach the maturity milestone put on earlier.

There are few items I have been watching closely recently. My study plan and quality time with loved ones and my ownself.

I began to cope with what life has thrown up on me pretty well. Some things I learned to let go with heart wide open, and others I started to take part/charge/full responsibility/accountability be it on decision, opinions etc.

FOCUS and STAY PUT

Travelling back home from Umrah on June, have given me extra insight. One thing that fascinate me from the journey was the diversity in terms of culture, perspective and lifestyle.

We learned to respect others, and bits by bits building up positive mindset towards stranger (while at the same time being cautious and guard up). Allah definitely taught us in so many ways throughout our life.

During my previous working years in manufacturing industry, my mind was conditioned to think that multitasker is the most productive ones. And while struggling to juggle the work life balance in which I failed terribly, I soon lose my ability to focus on one thing from start to end before swiftly move on to another tasks consciously.

When I move on to academic line, specifically in research area, I was lost. I can't stay put in one area longer as I should. The mind was moving swiftly from one  to another without my consent! Which left me with countless info and made me lost focus on what's important and needed to be done first.

That was what I learned during my umrah ---to stay focus on one thing first before move on to another thing. And I learned it during the prayer times.

To be honest, it was pretty hard to stay focus when your mind was in auto mode thinking about so many things. But along the way, insha Allah I hope I will be better. And when it becomes a habit, I can let my subconscious mind do the job.

As we grow older and wiser, we need to be mindful when selecting what to use, to learn, to keep, to love etc from the choices given by this world. Because whatever we take from this dunya, will be our responsibility in the hereafter.

Hopes For Upcoming Birthday

And as my birthday is coming in few days more, I pray for a better physical, mind, heart and soul to serve as His servant the best I should.

September, please be good to me! ;)

p/s: May Allah give me strength to fix the broken relation between us too. It has been the longest winter without you and been missing you badly. ogk.