just some updates

in the name of Allah The Most Beneficent The Most Merciful

Okay. Selamat sudah bersahur bersama home made pizza. Tak. Beli aje dekat pasar malam petang semalam. *senyum. Tak mengapa. Nanti satu masa saya akan belajar juga bagaimana untuk membuat pizza! 

Sebenarnya jam 830 nanti saya harus pergi ke Office. Harus kerana hari ini bukan waktu kerja. Tapi terpaksa datang kerana komitmen. Anyway, saya sempat menggodek-godek twitter dan terjumpa lah dengan satu quote dari siapa-entah-tak-ingat-nama.

Saya re-tweet kembali di twitter saya. Itu lah yang sedang berlaku dalam realiti hidup saya buat masa ini. Kadang-kala saya bertanya sendiri, apa yang saya cari sebenarnya? Kesempurnaan? Physical appearance? Stability? Agamanya?

Takdir telah menemukan saya dengan insan-insan yang mempunyai sifat-sifat di atas. tapi entah kenapa rasa itu tidak hadir. The excitement in the early stages itu pasti ada. It is an exciting phase kan untuk mengenali orang? I do love the adrenalin rush. Tapi entah kenapa it fades away once the other side starts to change the rhythm.

Perhaps i dont like it to change phase too fast? Bila difikir-fikirkan semula, perkara yang paling diperlukan di dalam sesuatu perhubungan ialah sense of security. But they failed to make me feel it. Too lil time, too much promises. Itu bukan zamannya lagi buat saya.

I've been there. In fact the past relation (though it didnt worked out anyway) took me a year to take it to another phase from friendship basis. in-calculated risk? I will never take it. Seriously. The reason of why I accept my ex proposal was because he was able to deliver his sincerity very well and provide me the feeling of security and trust. Of course there would be hiccups along the way and some fiction loss did happened. But that what made us a grown ups. We're too young, too many commitments (besides the study), too little time to fit each other's in the frame.

But hey! that doesn't mean I'm giving up on love tho I am still single now. *laugh. Just let it comes naturally without any external force. in fact I am already blessed with unconditional love from my chenta hati. My family, and friends. you know who you are. xoxo.. *smile.

Alhamdulillah..

career wise; I am still climbing up the ladder. wishing that there is an elevator or super duper fast lift to go up, high. please! *tutup mata dan wishing hard.

" dunia ini terlalu luas untuk berada statik di takuk yang sama. "