Life is..

in the name of Allah The Most Beneficent The Most Merciful

I know He will never breaks His promise. And thus I will not stop praying until He answers it. That faith I have for Him, should be a solid one without any doubts. But as His imperfect servant, there are times when it starts to shake.

Saya kah yang tidak cukup bersabar menanti keputusan pasti? Atau permintaan itu bukan yang terbaik di waktu ini? Looking at the condition now, I am pretty sure that this is the best one. Tapi jawapan itu terhenti bersama perkataan ini..

"Bersabarlah..kerana Dia sedang mempersiapkan yang terbaik buat kamu.."

Jika kesabaran itu harga bagi sebuah harapan dan doa, maka itu lah yang akan saya genggam kukuh. erat. tanpa lepas. penuh yakin. semampu pasti.

Cuma berharap, hati tidak goyah menanti sebuah kepastian.

ps: I  need my BFF badly to help me see through all the possibilities and options available. *kerut dahi berfikir.

during sleepless night..

in the name of Allah The Most Beneficent The Most Merciful

okay. this is the third night, I woke up during midnight. dan hilang rasa kantuk yang sepatutnya wujud demi untuk membolehkan mata terpejam dan otak berehat.

This is gonna affect my body clock later. not a good sign. By the way, im in love with all the songs in Glee. I know. I know. Orang dah lama suka baru sibuk nak suka jugak. kan?

Let's enjoy with the selected youtube videos. Look for the meaning in between the lyrics. *winks!

And oh! there is something useful I want to share..

"Giving is a miracle that can transform the heaviest of hearts. Two people, who moments before lived in separate worlds of private concerns, suddenly meet each other over a simple act of sharing. The world expands, a moment of goodness is created, and something new comes into being where before there was nothing.

To often we are blind to this everyday miracle. We build our lives around accumulation--of money, of possessions, of status--as a way of protecting ourselves and our families from the vagaries of the world. Without thinking, we begin to see giving as an economic exchange--a subtracting of something from who and what we are--and we weigh it on the scales of self-interest.

But true giving is not an economic exchange, it is a generative act. It does not subtract from what we have; it multiplies the effect we can have in the world.

Many people tend to think of giving only in terms of grand gestures. They miss the simple openings of the heart that can be practiced anywhere with almost anyone.

We can say hello to someone everybody ignores. We can offer to help a neighbor. We can buy a bouquet of flowers and take it to a nursing home, or spend an extra minute talking to someone who needs our time.

We can take ten dollars out of our pocket and give it to someone on the street. No praise, no hushed tones of holy generosity. Just give, smile, and walk away.

If you perform these simple acts, little by little you will start to understand the miracle of giving. You will begin to see the unprotected human heart and the honest smiles of human happiness. You will start to feel what is common among us, not what separates and differentiates us.

Before long you will discover that you have the power to create joy and happiness by your simplest gestures of caring and compassion. You will see that you have the power to unlock the goodness in other people's hearts by sharing the goodness in yours.

And, most of all, you will find the other givers. No matter where you live or where you travel, whether you speak their language or know their names, you will know them by their small acts, and they will recognize you by yours. You will become part of the community of humanity that trusts and shares and dares to reveal the softness of its heart.

Once you become a giver you will never be alone."

-Simple Truth by Kent Nerburn-

Ps: Please note that you will always be my special lil giver and that you're not alone..will never be..insya Allah. *wink!

Dear God, can time stop for a while? please?

in the name of Allah The Most Beneficent The Most Merciful

My head is full with work and planning..Quality and Production..man, I really need to sit down the whole day and start planning for the whole Quality activities and decide clearly what I need my team to do. Because apparently, that is the first item written in my KPI.

How I wish I could stop the time for 3 days and finish-up all the documentation for this!

and people still have not seen anything in progress yet.

it's breaking..

in the name of Allah The Most Beneficent The Most Merciful

into million pieces...

don't ever bother to take up the pieces and stick 'em back together.

 It is not gonna be the same. ever again..

I am tired. and I have had enough.

I am not perfect. no doubt. 

I am not that great. I realize that too.

You can go to your perfect life and perfect friends without having to look back. 

Because apparently,

 I have no guts to ever look back to what I am leaving now..

What's done is done. and what should be said, have been finally said.

Thank you for your kindness all these while...

 It was very much appreciated.

I'll note them. perfectly in my red velvet diary.

hiburan I

in the name of Allah The Most Beneficent The Most Merciful

al kisah......

week 1

A: psst....psst....sini la kejap.

Gadis X: err..(buat muka serba salah..nak jalan terus ke nak berhenti kat stesen berkenaan)..

A: Awak ni....sini la kejap.

Gadis X: nak ape? (buat muka annoying-apa-masalah budak kecik-ni?)

A: nak minta no telefon awak boleh?

Gadis X: huh? err...err...(cuba cari alasan)

A: ala...takkan tak boleh kot? bukan nak buat apa pun. nak kawan je..

Gadis X: eh, tak payah la...nak buat apa? bukan ada benda penting pun..(cepat-cepat larikan diri)

A: (muka masam tak puas hati)

Gadis X: (sumpah aku tak lalu jalan ni dah lepas ni. double cross!)

week 2

A: awak sini kejap.

Gadis Y: eh? saya?

A: angguk2.

Gadis Y: bukan awak patut cakap dengan dia ke? (sambil tunjuk ke arah Gadis X)

Gadis X: (oh no. disaster! kenapa lah aku lupa budak kecik ni ada kat sini?)...pandang sekilas dan terus berjalan ke arah lain.

Mr U: ape hal nye tu? (memandang ke arah Gadis Y & A sambil tersengih-sengih)

Gadis X: entahla. malas nak ambil tahu. (buat muka annoying)

tiba-tiba...

Gadis Y: X, saya ada benda nak cakap ni.

Gadis X: ha, kenapa? (muka pelik)

Gadis Y: tu, budak A tu dia kirim salam. (gelak besar)

Gadis X: huh? (what.....?????.....muka bengkek)

Mr U: kirim salam?? (pandang Gadis X sambil ketawa besar)

Gadis X: xyg$%^&*.........(muka stress)

Mr U: lain kali....ambil kertas, tampal kat belakang. Tulis besar-besar; "Saya dah ada orang punya." (ketawa sambil tekan perut)

Gadis Y: tak, patut tulis macam ni: "Single but NOT AVAILABLE". (sambil ketawa besar)

Gadis X: tak. sepatutnya saya kena kahwin cepat-cepat. baru tak kena kacau lagi. (sambil picit dahi)

**ada sebab kenapa Islam suruh kahwin awal. this is one of the reason.