tag. dan tag.

in the name of Allah The Most Beneficent The Most Merciful

Tak sangka.

Kena tag pulak dengan cik Anis. hee~ =p

Okay, mari kita tengok apa jawapan dia~...


7 FAKTA tentang sayer

1. Anak pertama. Tapi juga anak tunggal. (jangan pening eh!)
   
2. Belum habis belajar lagi. Tinggal setahun je lagi kat UTP. (oh, im gonna miss UTP & Tronoh soon..)
3. Quiet around ppl I rarely know.
   
4. Suka membaca. Anything will do as long as they are interesting enough.
5. Currently addicted to Avatar season 3. Tak sabar nak tunggu next episode:16~ terima kasih kpd cik Irza sbb sy ambik citer ni dari dia. =D
6. Lahir di Perak, tapi dulu-dulu tak suka tinggal kat Perak or anything that has to do with Perak sbb tinggal di Selangor. Now, Im glad I live in UTP, Tronoh, Perak. ;)
   
7. DEgil. Susah nak dengar kata tapi senang diinfluence. If u know how to~
   

7 PERKARA menakutkan sayer

1. Teringatkan Mati. *who doesn't?*
2. Public Speaking. *Stage fright yg melampau*
3. Kehilangan org-org tersayang secara tiba-tiba.
4. Mimpi pelik. (bila otak tak synchronized, i do get weird dreams sometimes.)
5. Langgar benda hidup semasa memandu.
6. Bila nak dapat result exam.
7. Bila terjaga tgh malam, and suddenly hearing Sue singing in her dream! Syukur lagu psl cinta-cinta, bukan yg pelik-pelik.
   

7 LAGU buat maser skrg

sorry~ tak dengar apa-apa lagu sekarang

7 PERKATAAN yg selalu sayer sebut

1. Sengal..
2. Oke
3. Take Care
4. Love U
5. Adei
   
6. Ala..
7. oOoOoo
   

7 PERKARA yg amat bernilai

1. Nikmat Islam
2. Iman
3. Hidup saya
4. Org2 yg penting dlm hidup saya
5. Kejayaan dalam hidup
6. Hati yg mampu membimbing
7. Duit~ (harga minyak naik, jadi duit adalah antara perkara terpenting untuk survive)
   

7 PERTAMA kali dlm hidup sayer

1. Drive kereta, bukan kat rumah. tapi di Kerteh. Sendirian.
2. Dapat hadiah jam tangan RM150 sebab dpt no. 1 masa darjah 3. tapi lepas tu jam tu rosak ke hilang ntah. isk2~
3. Tinggal di Pantai Timur, specifically Kerteh. Best~ tapi panas sikit. ;p
4. Sesat jalan yg paling teruk last week. Dah la gulap gulita, ntah jalan mane-mane ntah main redah. Hutan je kiri kanan. patutnya ke Marang, instead the signboard shows: Kuala Berang. erks... mujur tak ada perkara buruk berlaku & selamat jugak sampai ke destinasi.
   
5. Main air di Sekayu. spell it. TOTALLY B.E.S.T!
6. Jatuh cinta... haha, no-no. it is personal. erm, ape ye? memasak, saya masak nasi goreng. tapi... rasa dia pelik! sebab letak semua benda. x sedap langsung! ni mase form 5 after SPM. lepas tu terus belajar masak sebab rasa takut kalau-kalau sampai besar pun tak tahu memasak..alhamdulillah. boleh la tahan. kan anis kan? ;p
   
7. Pakai lens mase form 5. sebab rase spek ni berat sangat! nak bergerak pon susah~

jadi seterusnya, sesiapa yg baca entri kali ni, sila buat tag ini oke? Selamat~

"Just remember when u think all is lost, Future remains!"
-Dr Robert H. Goddard, American Rocket Engineer-

health: bipolar disorder

in the name of Allah The Most Beneficent The Most Merciful


Salam alaik everyone~ =)

erm, recently i was searching for something useful and worth enough to read and i remembered about this one illness. it is not a chronic disease but somehow more or less affecting our psychology and attitude and life.

have u guys heard about BIPOLAR DISORDER?

Bipolar disorder causes dramatic mood swings—from overly “high” and/or irritable to sad and hopeless, and then back again, often with periods of normal mood in between. Severe changes in energy and behavior go along with these changes in mood. The periods of highs and lows are called episodes of mania and depression.

Signs and symptoms of mania (or a manic episode) include:

• Increased energy, activity, and restlessness
• Excessively “high,” overly good, euphoric mood
• Extreme irritability
• Racing thoughts and talking very fast, jumping from one idea to another
• Distractibility, can’t concentrate well
• Little sleep needed
• Unrealistic beliefs in one’s abilities and powers
• Poor judgment
• Spending sprees
• A lasting period of behavior that is different from usual
• Increased sexual drive
• Abuse of drugs, particularly cocaine, alcohol, and sleeping medications
• Provocative, intrusive, or aggressive behavior
• Denial that anything is wrong

Signs and symptoms of depression (or a depressive episode) include:

• Lasting sad, anxious, or empty mood
• Feelings of hopelessness or pessimism
• Feelings of guilt, worthlessness, or helplessness
• Loss of interest or pleasure in activities once enjoyed, including sex
• Decreased energy, a feeling of fatigue or of being “slowed down”
• Difficulty concentrating, remembering, making decisions
• Restlessness or irritability
• Sleeping too much, or can’t sleep
• Change in appetite and/or unintended weight loss or gain
• Chronic pain or other persistent bodily symptoms that are not c au sed by physical illness or injury
• Thoughts of death or suicide, or suicide attempts

  

A mild to moderate level of mania is called hypomania. Hypomania may feel good to the person who experiences it and may even be associated with good functioning and enhanced productivity. Thus even when family and friends learn to recognize the mood swings as possible bipolar disorder, the person may deny that anything is wrong. Without proper treatment, however, hypomania can become severe mania in some people or can switch into depression.

Sometimes, severe episodes of mania or depression include symptoms of psychosis (or psychotic symptoms). Common

psychotic symptoms are hallucinations (hearing, seeing

, or otherwise sensing the presence of things not actually there) and delusions (false, strongly held beliefs not influenced by logical reasoning or explained by a person’s usual cultural concepts). Psychotic symptoms in bipolar disorder tend to reflect the extreme mood state at the time. For example, delusions of grandiosity, such as believing one is the President or has special powers or wealth, may occur during mania; delusions of guilt or worthlessness,

such as believing that one is ruined and penniless or has committed some terrible crime, may appear during depression. People with bipolar disorder who have these symptoms are sometimes incorrectly diagnosed as having schizophrenia, another severe ment al illness

Symptoms of mania and depression may occur together in what is called a mixed bipolar state. Symptoms of a mixed state often include agitation, trouble sleeping, significant change in appetite, psychosis, and suicidal thinking. A person may have a very sad, hopeless mood while at the same time feeling extremely energized.

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If u guys are facing some of the simptoms above, take actions and go for a check-up. And somehow, sometimes i do feel like i'm having this kind of illness.
(which totally scared me off!)
but after a while i realized it was due to depression only. (eh, seriusl y my mind is healthy k~)

but then, who knows that we might end up having this illness if we never seriously take note and care about ourselves. (Nauzhubillah..)

Medications tu sem uanya untuk para pesakit. But then, bg saya lebih baik mencegah daripada merawat bila dah terkena.

Salah satu petua ialah dengan selalu dan rajin-rajinkanlah diri membaca Al-Quran dan mentadabbur ayat-ayat yang kita dah baca. Selain dapat membersihkan hati, it can also mend the heart.

In fact sebenarnya bangun malam untuk Qiam tu juga one of the ways which helps us reduce the level of depression in ourselves. Sebab, di saat itu hanya ada kita dan Pencipta kita sahaja. dan di kala itu juga, kita rasa b ebas dari bebanan dan keterikatan dengan kehidupan dunia kita. Make the time valuable enough untuk mengadu, merintih & memohon kepada DIA. Dalam setiap sujud itu menunjukkan tanda betapa rendah & lemahnya kita sebagai hamba di hadapan DIA. betapa tinggi & agungnya DIA sebagai pencipta yg MAHA.

if we can make a close connection with others why would it be so hard to do the same with our Creator?

ask ourselves deeply, have we spend one specific time in our days for Him. just for Him, mind & soul?

in the name of Allah The Most Beneficent The Most Merciful

salam alaik

alhamdulillah. final presentation finally done.

remaining reports & final report to be done next.

oh, just coming back from Air Terjun Sekayu.

it was totally awesome! =)

but unfortunately, no pics taken. just the memory remain in hearts~.

recently when i was flipping through someone else's blog, terasa seperti nak memberi komen. tapi bila fikir kan yg dia tak kenal sy, and plus that i am just an outsider, so what do i have that will makes that person thinks i have the right to advise her about her personal life rite?

takpe2, biar sy komen sendiri kt blog sy =p

selalunya, dan semestinya semua orang akan mengharapkan pasangan yg dijodohkan memenuhi kriteria dan impian hati. boleh kata lebih 50% juga inginkan kesempurnaan.

tapi, masalahnya,

1. tak semua yang kita impikan/harapkan/inginkan itu kita akan dapat#
2. tak semua yg kita fikirkan sempurna itu sebenarnya sempurna utk kita#
3. tak semua yg diingini itu merupakan yg terbaik utk kita#

kerana apa?

kerana setiap manusia itu punya karektor, sikap, sifat dan keupayaan yg berbeza-beza. (sebagai salah satu tanda kebesaranNYA, if ever u have time to think bout it.)

tidak semestinya kebiasaan yang selalu orang lain buat itu adalah yg terbaik utk kita juga.

oh btw, boleh saya bertanya satu soalan?

at what circumstances that makes it relevan to bring out anak gadis orang di malam hari, berdua (dating perhaps?) when in the first place, kamu menyuruh si dia melabuhkan tudungnya? pakai tudung yg labuh sikit maksudnya di sini. doesnt that means u know the rules very well rite? dah tu kenapa tak boleh nak ajar diri sendiri supaya mematuhi apa yg tersurat dlm undang-undang DIA bila kamu boleh pulak mintak si dia mematuhi undang-undang DIA sebaik mungkin. tak terasa pelik ke? fikir-fikirkanlah. semak balik surah As-Saf.

entah

in the name of Allah The Most Beneficent The Most Merciful

salam alaik.

rase tak sabar nak balik ke rumah~

n btw, next week they'll throwing a party for us. the trainees. farewell party.

terharu...


seriously!

PGB. walaupun kedekut dan berkira sikit dgn elaun (1 day off:-RM16.67)
tapi overall: BEST. alhamdulillah.

orang kata makanan kt kerteh ni mahal. tapi lepas dah hampir 7 bulan lebih menumpang di kerteh, takde lah mahal sangat. biasa-biasa aje.

dan sedap!

x semahal makanan di Miri juge kn? :p

x sabar nak balik.

im counting days now.

mood: fluctuate mengikut keadaan.

harap maaf kepada sesiapa yg berkenaan.

n syuk,

tak sabar nak tunggu jumpe kt UTP.

minggu depan presentation. doakan kami semua yeh!

lastly,

im gonna miss kerteh soon.

tempat yg penuh dgn pantai dan laut. ada kedai ikan bakar yg sangat sedap juge.

God bless!

bla..bla..bla..

in the name of Allah The Most Beneficent The Most Merciful

salam alaik,

it's been a while since my last post. since the modem got struck by the lightning few weeks ago, i guess my network card also affected. yelah, org lain boleh online sekarang, tapi laptop ni, menghampakan harapan sy. btw, adalah rasa relief jugak. more concentration on work now.

few days menjadi seorang yg workaholic, seronok jugak. living my life w/out internet, nothing much different.

oh, btw. mood sekarang tgh jealous.

i AM seriously jealous.

don't ask why.

azam: nak jadi workaholic so that i can forget about those unimportant things and focus more on work. fullstop.

a place i called home.

in the name of Allah The Most Beneficent The Most Merciful

salam alaik..

malam ni entah kenapa rindu bertandang. rindu sangat-sangat pada kenangan lama. saat-saat masih baru dan cuba-cuba untuk mengenal dunia sebagai remaja. there a lot of things that i learned from there. rindu pada kelas 405/505 dan segala isinya. rindu pada telatah dan gelagat lucu kawan-kawan.

pejam celik, pejam celik..tak sangka dah hampir 5 tahun tinggal bumi Taiping yg penuh suka-duka. looking back, dan membandingkan diri yg berusia 17 tahun dan 22 tahun, secara jujurnya, banyak yg berubah. alhamdulillah, adalah improvement sikit-sikit..cuma agak malang perangai buruk susah sikit nak dibuang. well, it takes time i guess ;)

dan salah satunya, sifat DEGIL, suka BERTANGGUH (ni dah kurang sikit sejak dua menjak nih..)

apa lagi yek?

erm, sifat PESIMIS. ni penyakit yang kadang-kala melanda bila tiba saat genting. selalunya tak ada, tapi bila dah datang, memang tak tahu dah nak ubat macam mana. duh!

dalam masa 5 tahun ni, pelbagai perkara terjadi di sekeliling...pada insan-insan tersayang. pada yg jauh, mahu pun yang dekat. jujur dari hati, i felt a twinge of guilty for not be able to be there for someone that i said important in my life when she needed me the most in life at the moment.

entahlah, i just hope that she'll be able to move on. to look forward and never look back. history, just no matter how many tears u have shed because of it, it is still there. unmovable. undeleted.

i think i miss her tonite. harap suatu hari nanti, we'll meet again. and regardless of everything that ever happened to u, and even if no one dares to be with u nanti, with the will of Allah, i will try my best to always be there for u. even if u can't see my face, my voice...the prayers will always be there for u.

cause nothing can replace u in my heart. remember that!

moga kita, saya, anda dan mereka tetap tabah menjalani hidup sehari-hari. biar berat dugaan melanda, tetap teguhkan jiwa dan pasakkan iman agar langkah tidak pincang. berubah, sejauh mana pun larian itu, andai bukan di atas jalan NYA, tetap tidak akan bisa mententeramkan sekeping hati. berubahlah, dan pulang kembali kepada DIA.

hanya itu. dan hanya satu. jalan terbaik.

(kata-kata untuk dia, saya dan kamu. semoga selalu kita ingat. dan tak pernah lupa.)

Jom kahwin??

in the name of Allah The Most Beneficent The Most Merciful

salam alaik~

seminggu lebih menyepi dari dunia siber, magically tak terasa kehilangan apa-apa pun untuk seorang kaki siber mcm saya mmg lah sesuatu yg memeranjatkan. herm, mencuri masa sekitar sepuluh minit untuk update hidup yg tak seberapa lama ni sebentar sebelum mata kembali tutup untuk berehat sebentar. =)

btw, Terengganu cuti esok! yeay! gembira hati tak terkata. bukan kerana nak bercuti pun. tapi sebab slide untuk final presentation masih lagi di takuk lama. no reasons why. and pls, don't bother to even ask why. =p

tadi bercerita dengan mak panjang lebar. rindu. yes, that's one word that best describe how i feel at the moment. mujur saja otak tak serabut dan rasa tertekan amat. (rindu rumah+stress untuk final presentation probably cukup untuk buat sy rasa seperti nak lari ke hujung dunia and duduk sendirian for a while.) rasa tak puas lagi nak bercerita, tapi mak awal-awal lagi sudah bersedia nak meletakkan telefon. apa lagi, bisinglah saya dibuatnya. kita sudahlah rindu ni, tak dapat plak nak cakap lama-lama. alasan mak, nanti bil tinggi susah. jawap saya, saya tak selalu call orang lain pun, jadi don't worry bout the bill. tiba-tiba mak terbuka cerita tentang kawan sepejabat abah yg sebaya umur mak, tapi sekarang sudah dapat cucu pertama. bunyi nada macam agak jelaous dengan orang tu pun ada kedengaran jugak di telinga saya.

adakah beliau punya harapan yg sama di dalam hati? eh, biar betul mak?? i am not even reached 22 yet (tunggu bulan 9 oke?) still have another year to finish up my study... and...

apa kata mak? apa susahnya...nikah sudah, tak payah nak buat kenduri besar-besar kalau tak ada duit. adeh.... thank God, it was a joke.

okey, i am not the person who's wishing to have wedding in a garden, tapi kenduri yang meriah is better walaupun kecil-kecilan. yang penting is the blessings, not how much money u spend to make it a fabulous one rite?

apa kena entah, malam ni mak macam nak suruh kahwin cepat je. or is it me who misunderstood her? mungkin mak sudah terasa along is already big enough now? O_o
?
tak tahu lah nak komen ape. yang penting restu ibu bapa tu mesti ada saat saya melangkah ke dalam kehidupan baru nanti, sebab tanpa mereka, siapalah saya...dan tanpa mereka juga, tiadalah saya hari ini...

just a minute pls...

in the name of Allah The Most Beneficent The Most Merciful

Salam alaaik~

heh. finally the modem has been changed. but then still the connection can not be split yet. tu lah, malas lagi nak belajar camane nak buat sendiri. when things become like this, semua suffer~
still, alhamdulillah.

oh, 5 minutes only. okay, so far life without internet? erm, nothing much to worry pun. since there's no works that need the urgency to do